It’s not worth it if I don’t see myself how others see me. all this has made me miserable, not happy. Bye tumblr. I’m done with this shit. fucking done.

Getting better. but I’m not happy yet.

I found out when the first day of school is. September 6. I MUST be 80 lbs by then and 85 by Warped Tour which is August 9.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKKKK.

I’m a fucking failure. so close to my SW. 6 lbs away from it. I cant believe I let this happen. So I’m doing under 400 calories for as long as I can possibly manage.

Warped Tour Goal (Aug. 9): 85 lbs

Goal Before School Starts: 80 lbs

B 11:00 - Banana and Water (100 cal)

L 1:00 - Peach and water (probably around 50 cal)

S 3:00 - Peach and water (probably around 50 cal)

S 5:00 - Banana and water (100 cal)

D 7:00 - skip dinner and have a Banana, Peach, and water instead (around 150 cal)

which totals to 450 calories which is perfect. I need to get rid of water weight and I need to still eat every two hours to speed up my metabolism.

fuck. sorry I haven’t updated in so long. I went from 90 lbs, to 96, to 95, now to 97. FUCK YOU. I plan to be 90 lbs in 2 weeks. I eat pretty healthy I just eat TOO MUCH. I need to stop. I must be 80-85 lbs by August 9th. Warped Tour.